Day 2 Project

We had a garage sale at work today. It was an exhilarating experience. I never felt so happy before. I was actually involved and present in life. Lots and lots of Asian old women that were dying for those cheap towels. Lol. It got so insane that we had to close it down and in the middle of closing the door, this lady was like "WAITTT When are you guys going to open up again?" Like holy shitt. I never felt so alive seeing all these excited people that want to spend money for our things. Damn. I know the feeling when people want to spend money and feel happy with their purchases. I love getting involved in a community like that. Maybe I didn't make a huge difference to the world, but its still something. I love helping people. Seriously compared to our old warehouse, this was like freakin' miracle. I realize something, the more money someone makes, the more of an impact they make on someones life or make an impact on a ton of peoples lives, and in a way, it gives a sense of how much involvement in the community. The idea that someone contributed so much to the world does really feel powerful and amazing. But even a little feels amazing. I can't imagine how the CEO feels. I bet flippin' amazing because he has made a large impact to many, many customers and in return he can provide a great life for his children.

I've always been very happy when helping people. No matter how small. For example, when I was in middle school/elementary, I taught little kids with their homework & it made me happy. When I was babysat, I was the one who was flippin taking care of the baby there, not the other way around. WTF right? I was ridiculed & was put to shame, never ever getting any reciprocation. I have the burning desire.. to help people. I like to take care of them. Is it just me?? Hmm. I don't know. I never approached my school material as a way for me to help people.. but I should start thinking that way. I just did it just to get good grades and do minimal amount of work.. I never cared. Basically I retained the info for the test and forget it after.

Basically, money is a reflection of how much you bring to the world. It's not just money, it's the idea that you left a mark in the world and made a huge positive impact to the world. Honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way. I want it to be challenging. I don't want to be spoonfed. I will work hard to get to my happiness and live a long life.

I had done a ton of self reflection at work and everywhere I go. A lot of observations. Well I'm going to eat and start blogging a bit more about my ideas and my progress.

Some books I want to read later,
The Wisdom of Insecurity by Alan Watts.
Buddha in Blue Jeans: An Extremely Short Simple Zen Guide to Sitting Quietly
Become What You Are

Movies
Yes man

One of my dreams, I want to inspire young girls. I'm not sure what. But I think it would feel amazing to help them.. I dont know? I feel like I can connect and be able to share some advice to them! haha.